Emptiness

I happen to be SERIOUSLY craving Firehouse in Logan right now. Particularly their Cordon Blue Cedar Baked Sandwich. Oh, the memories...

For some reason, I thought if I threw that out there to the vast emptiness of the internet it would make me feel better.

Results: Nope, just feel worse. I think it made me want it more. And to add to that pain, added the pain of missing Logan more. Booo hooooo. And my pity party is over now. Thanks, vast and empty internet for listening even though it didn't help.

What Did I get?!

I love my family and all my sisters. I feel like we have a very special bond and are very similar in some ways. We are also very different and have different strengths. I was thinking today about those differences and wanted to write them down:

My sister Mindy is the strong one. I remember when we had a family death and just after my parents called to tell me I wanted to call Mindy. I knew that just hearing her voice would make me feel better and make me toughen up when I was so far away and couldn't be by family. And since she has started he blog, I realize she is also the funny one. She must have gotten all of my funny genes because she is extra funny and I am far from it. I admire her for both of these qualities.

** I couldn't steal a pic of her from FB or her blog so I stole one of her skills! Go Min. This looks awesome!

Demaree is the creative one. She is the only one that has any artistic ability (besides Karina. But that consists of paper and water most of the time). She is great at drawing! She also is able to sew like crazy. I'm talking make her own patterns, make car seat covers, crazy. She has made some really cute things. She is also great at knowing when to be sensitive and when to talk sense. What a great quality. There have been many times that I have turned to her because I knew that I would get an honest opinion. If I deserved sympathy she would give it but if I was being ridiculous she would tell me I was and I would accept that.

Karina is in a league of her own. I admire her for so many things. I can't image how frustrating it would be to have so many things hold her back when at certain times her mind is so sharp and I'm sure she knows what she wants and what she could be doing. She is also funny. I love how care free and happy she is at certain times. She has a child likeness about her and I love it. I remember when my niece passed away Karina just accepted it and said. "Hailey is in Heaven". And that was that. She knew where she was and wasn't sad. I have wondered so many times if she really knew what was happening and how sad it was but I am sure she did. She knew that we would see her again and she was in Heaven and wondered why we all had "colds" that made our eyes water a lot. 

I love my sisters and am so grateful for all their unique qualities. Sure love them! I would tell you all about my parents and their unique qualities but that is for another post, another day. But I sure love them too and think they are amazing. 

I'm a Big Boy Now

Let's just say that potty training is great birth control for me. It makes me not want to anymore kids and I already dread doing it with Damon. And I've only been at for 3 days! A potty training wimp, I guess. But I refuse to put him back in diapers so I will just put on the enthusiastic I love potty training more that anything in the world face for Mac and vent to you all about how I don't like it.

But in all reality he is actually doing really well and I am so proud of him. He has had several accidents a few melt downs but has also had several victories. Tonight being the best of all. Here's how it went down. I went upstairs to get his pajamas and a pull-up even though it was a lot earlier than I normally get him ready for bed. I was just done with underwear and couldn't wait to get him in that pull-up! When I came back downstairs I couldn't find him. I looked everywhere and finally found him, guess where?! On the toilet. He had taken off his undies, climbed up there and as soon as I walked in he went pee.

HOOOOORRRRRAAAAHHHHH!!!!  I think he was so bugged with me constantly asking him if he needed to go to the bathroom and was happy to do it on his own. Plus, he is very observant and models EVERYTHING we do (like most kids but I feel like he is a little extreme). I think because we don't tell him we need to go, and we just take ourselves that he wants to do the same thing.

What a kid! Sure love that boy and am so proud of him! GO MAC!! Here's to hopefully a bright future of using the potty.