Just bear with me on this one...

So my good friend Jillian is back. Jillian Michaels, that is. I've got to get rid of my baby belly and the Jillian DVDs I have seem to be my best option right now. They kick my butt and I feel great when I am done working out to them.

There is one part on one of the DVD that I hate and usually go "half fast" on. It is killer. But you see, I really want to get in better shape so doing this is doing me NO good. I just can't seem to give this certain kick boxing move my all.

I have this picture of Christ on my mantel. Its right next to my tv. So this last time Jillian and I were bonding and the above mentioned kick boxing part came I started to poop out. Although I had the desire to bust it, I just couldn't. Until I saw the picture of Christ. For some reason it made me work harder and got me through the minute of it. As long as I was staring at it I could get through it. But if I looked away, I quit. Even if I didn't want to.

I seem to make weird analogies out of weird things. My mind is a mystery to even me. But this certain experience made me realize that sometimes we just need something to focus on to get us through rough times. And if we're all being honest here, this whole life we live is a "test", therefore, a "hard thing", right? We are imperfect human beings and we have to go beyond ourselves to become better and stronger. I know I need to be better at staying focused on what is important and realizing that sometimes I am not strong enough to do things that I want to do and be the person I want to be. I lose focus and need something to focus on to help me be that better and stronger person.

Jullian made me ask myself, "where is my focus at"?